10 days and going...

It has been 10 days...

Not a very long time....
But it is still... hard for me...

It isn't easy... I am still resisting
I don't want it...
No matter it has been the fact since 10 days ago...

I hope that day didn't come...
I really do hope it.

But I guess a time machine is not yet invented so I can't go back...

I still keep on forgetting the fact that I should do it...
I should put it down and move on...
But I guess I just can't make myself to do...

I hate it... But I have to do it...

Compare to the past 2 years... I just these 10 days were much more than that...
Seriously...
You still don't know what I am talking about right?
Well... I have finally start eating veggy!
Hurray!
The amount of veggy I ate for the past 10 days is way more than the amount combine from the past 2 years, Trust me on this...

But I guess... I just a picky person that didn't want to eat veggy...
Cox I find out that I don't really have a reason to hate eating veggy...
Oh well... it will just goes on...

Wonder why I suddenly start eating veggy?
Well cox I lost a bet to myself and so I have to promise myself to eat veggy...
I should have make doing more housework as the bet...

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I once said that I will continue to so I will...
But I think by continuing... actually bring me back to square one...
I might just be doing the whole thing again... End up getting the same answer...
I try to stop myself...
But I really can't...
I can't let it go....
I still want to talk to you...
I still worry for you...
I still hope to know you...
I still...